Day Eleven
Faith & Trust
I applied for a highly competitive job with a well known
agency several months ago. It is not that I am eager to leave the home. I love
being with our children. It’s just that the military is down sizing and our
future is uncertain. In addition, this position is a once in a life time kind
of job.
I have gone through a variety of emotions and thoughts over
the last few months. One that seems to keep creeping in is the feeling of
incompetence on my part. I am qualified on the most basic level for this
position. There are others who are even more qualified than I am. Their
applications are most likely dotted with a variety of qualifications that
include combat time and physics or high level math degrees, none of which do I
have. In fact, everyone that I have talked to has said to me that this job would be perfect for me and I would be
perfect for it. I agree, which is why I applied. That however has not stopped
that nagging little voice in the back of my mind from telling me that I am so
much less qualified than all the other candidates. I have to remind myself that
my God is bigger than all that. It is not about qualifications with Him. It is
about a person’s heart and where they fit into His plan for this huge world we
live in.
I am trusting God on this. I do really want the job. If I
don’t get it, I will be a little disappointed. At the same time, I know that
God has a plan for each and everyone of us. I just have to keep moving forward
in the way that I believe God to be leading me and He will show me the way.
“For I know the thoughts that I think
toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace,
and not of evil, to give you an expected end.” – Jeremiah 22:11 (KJV)
God, thank You for directing my path. Help me to continue
listening to You and seeking out Your will for my life. Amen.
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